I don't understand, why you still care for me. I don't deserve it, it's too hard, for me, for you. I'm used to people giving up on me, than tell me why are you still here? It's hard dealing with a mental ill person, it will not bring you joy but sadness en hard times. I can't believe you'll care forever. So I prefer you stop caring right now, before I get used to it and than you're letting me go.